OUT OF THE DARKNESS ...

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out of the darkness ...

What is this hell on earth I must endure?

I call your name for I know you are not far from me.

Rejection Intimidation Loss Victimization

Failure Family History Humiliation

nothing is too difficult for thee ...

listen to this truth ...	you are not alone	God is with you

YOU

his mighty angels

will watch over you

there is no place

He can not go ...

trust, He is with you

seek Him ... He will NOT

forsake you.

He will NOT desert you.

He will take your burdens

from you.

BELIEVE

The darkness that enshrouds me pulls me down as it increases my anxiety and takes me to a place so desolate that it feels no one has ever taken this path before me and I find myself praying within my own agony that no one ever has or ever will. You are here, I know it ... it's just that I can not feel you right now but I have faith that you are making a way for me to escape this place. I know it as well as I know you exist. My mind races with impossible thoughts, negativity, fear, paranoia, they try to grip me and drag me to the depths but I will not be conquered for they have NO PLACE here for I am a child of God and I will not be entrenched. We will stand in victory together at the end of this trial and you will embrace me and then let me soar as I experience the freedom of joy once again. It's you and me, Lord. It always has been, it always and FOREVER will be.

IF YOU WERE EVER IN A PLACE THAT YOU COULD HAVE AUTHORED THESE WORDS LET ME PRAY FOR YOU, WITH YOU ... I CARE.

Just standing in faith and waiting on the Lord. So many of us are on this path.	Fear grips me. I can not think past it, through it, over or under it. Oh Lord, I cry out to you ... do not forsake me.	I do not deserve your attention Lord. I have walked a path far from you ... but I beg of you Father ... pick me up dust me off, hug me, love me FORGIVE ME ... embrace me, HEAL ME.
I need you in my life ... I need you.	So many things I don't understand. Take hormones ... I don't get it. They seem to be a blessing some days, a curse others. Father, please balance things out in my body.	"Be with me Lord I can not live without thee. I dare not try to take one step alone I can not bear the loads of life unaided ..."
"Amazing Grace, how sweet the sound that saved a wretch like me I once was lost, but now I'm found was blind, but now I see ..."	Deliver me Lord God, I pray this so feverently, in Jesus' name. Amen.	I have forgotten how to pray I only know I need you My life is a mess Please be the glue that will piece me back together Lord. My faith is in YOU.